Exposure

Water Color Pencil Graphite on Resurfaced Old Book Page

Today was the first day of the website building course.  The teacher is engaging and I will defiantly learn a lot.  The only bummer is the course will be taught using the MySpace platform and I have my current site on Wix.  I had hoped to better understand how to use Wix, since I have paid for it already.  We will be able to use MySpace for a trial period of two weeks and then must decide if we want to sign up.  If I do not sign up all of the designing is lost and I am back where I started, at Wix, not understanding how to edit my site.

I will stick with the course regardless.  The assets needed to build the site, wether on Wix or MySpace, will be the same and I will benefit from the assignments and feedback.

I had a negative self talk stretch after class. We have been asked to put together an art related CV and talk about where we have shown our work who is collecting, what awards have we received, etcetera. I made the terrible mistake of comparing myself to the other students and teacher.

Here are my thoughts at the lowest point…

-Took the class and I feel sad and unaccomplished and turd like.

I have not reached my earning and acclimation potential and what else is there of value in this culture.

Still I will carry on, plow through and find my way.  I will not stop because of this limited belief.

And above are the drawings I worked on today. They are very grounding and calming to make.

Yes I did meet my creativity goal, if I include the class time and the homework.

And lastly I picked up an idea in class today. Rather than calling this site a "Blog" I am going to call it my Journal. It feels more like a journal than a blog.